I'm such a procrastinator! And it is such a bad habit... It would not be so bad if it did not imply much stress to me... I have so little self-confidence that i am afraid i will fail or be refused things.... so i just do them in the last second, when i cannot but do them, lest i should really ruin opportunities... Maybe that is what makes me a non-winner (i would not go as far as labelling myself a looser...)... i don't know...

Anyway, the last few days have been filled with stress due to procrastination! Besides my usual life, i am student and i have been very involved in the subject that have chosen to research about.... However, i had to do the re-inscription paperwork and so on... and of course i worried about it only last week, not even being sure that my teacher would agree to let me work on my subject anymore... Basically, i could have thrown years of studies, a year of work just because i procrastinate... The consequences might even have been worse, as i might not have been able to reach the goal of my life, that i have been working for for so long...

Today i got the relieving phone call... Yes, i am allowed to work one more year on my subject, yes, i'm allowed to pursue my dream.... YES, i must change my habits as they do me no good, cause too much bad stress and increase the feeling of failure that i have about me! No more procrastination... i wish i could fight against it!